will you teach a wretch to live

ask her ask when (ask and ask and ask again and)ask a brittle little person fiddling in the rain (did you kiss a girl with nipples like pink thimbles) ask him ask who (ask and ask and ask ago and)ask a simple crazy thing singing in the snow

Saturday, July 23, 2005

 

minsan lang dumarating ang mga certainties sa buhay.

matapos ang mahabang panahon...


mga dalawang buwan din ata since i posted an entry. actually i decided to delete this blog kanina. wala lang. napaka-updateless niya kasi. gets niyo??


well, i know naman walang magbabasa nito, except a few beloved people (ness, kang, ari na inyo gina hulat nga update!!)


question is, why the sudden journal entry?


actually, i don't have much choice. here i am waiting for vhanek to come home. shet. the price of katangahan ng nakakapag-iwan ng susi. the hell!! it's midnight and im still outside. i hav 2 exams coming up din. grrrr!!!


so ayun, im blogging. reminds me of aika's statement: that blogging ay para sa mga walang magawa. maybe. maybe not.


im so sleepy na talaga. no sign of vanessa anywhere. huhu kang, aha na man tawon ka> ngano imo man ko gibyaan dre? hehe


so how about that for crying and laughing at the same time? let's start with what ron (de leon: i doubt kung mababasa mo ito!) told me. na may MPD daw ako. hmmm. that made me think. do i have such a complicated personality? i don't think so. i'm fairly consistent.


(self-assessment....)

bakit niya kaya nasabi yun? idagdag natin ang sinabi nina adrian and jonathan (and i dount din kung mababasa biyo ito!). according to them, sila ang lagi kong kasama sa econ, kakwentuhan. but kapag natapos ang isang araw na pagsasama, they know almost nothing about me. it seems, according to them, that i talk a lot but not about myself.

sabi ni aika at vhanuk, around a week ago if i not mistaken, di daw ako nagsasabi. they were refering to what was happening to me and HIM. (hereon, when i say HIM, im refering to my pag-ibig {according to borj and mark]. di bvwa, Karena Pomaneg ang moda, may pa-him-him pa. celebrity kasi ako, i have to protect his identity baka dumugin sya ng media. anyway, going back..)


so big question: MASIKRETO AKO.


a big irony to what most people see me- madaldal, makuwento.


at masasabi ko oo.

kasi, i think lang naman no, tha pople think im this bubbly teenager. i don't project myself as that. it's just that i am that way. sabi ni jonathan, sa likod ng mga tawa ay ang masalimuot long pagkatao. to hell with him. what i mean is, if im having problems (ie.. acads, money, boylets) why would i let it affect the way akong makiharap sa mga tao? di nyo naman kasalanan kung bumagsak ako sa exam o wala akong pera. kahit nasa bingit ako ng kamatayan, di niyo problema yun. and i don't want you to problem my problem because that is my problem and it gives me a problem when you problem my problem, which results to additional problem on my part and yours also.


ano, nagmamaskara ako?


sino ba sa atin ang hindi.


speaking of problems, let me enumerate my current problems. ha! as if you care. pero blog ko ito and i have all the right!!! (this statement makes me sing: Life, oh life.. oh life... oh life.. da da da da...)


Econ 141 exam - no explanation needed


ETC ED - di pa namin mafinaliza ang ED. dagdag haggard. i want it to be bongga. and kudos to rico, my VP. keep it up, buddy.


PERA - not that i need it at the moment. kasi di pa dumarating ang scholarship ko of around $7000. that's roughly Php 385,000.00 !!!! o di ba. anlaki ng scholarship ko. di ako nagyayabang. kasi it bothers me all the time. wag nyo na asahan ang libre becoz its not mine. my mom needs it. naiiyak ako. ang mahal na kasi ng mga bilihin ngayon. naghihirap na ang mga tao.


SUSI - vhanek, nasaan ka!!!!


yun lang ba??


of course, di mawawala ang lovelife. ewan ko ba. parang di ako nauubusan ng problema sa lalaki. di ko sila hinahanap. they just come to my life just when i don't need them. [mahal na mahal ko siya] eto pa ang masaklap. para bang ang tingin sa akin ng ato ay isang naglalakad na lovelife. grabe yun!!! walang naniniwala sa akin kapag sinabi kong wala akong ka ewang lalaki. hay naku talaga!!!


ano, lulubusin ko na ba? im just talking to myself lang naman e.


yun naman ang bumabagabag sa akin lagi. nakakairita man at napakacliche na - LOVE.


EWW.


nakakainis lang. ngayon lang ako nagmahal. hala sige, magsitaasan ang mga kilay ninyong
mga bruha kayo. sa dami ng nkarelasyon/nalink (celebrity!!) sa akin, por Dios!! wala yung mga yun! I HAVE NEVER BEEN CERTAIN IN MY LIFE. at minsan lang dumarating ang mga certainties sa buhay.


inaantok na ako.


at ayokong umiyak sa harap ng computer.


alam ko lang, mahal na mahal ko siya.

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