will you teach a wretch to live

I can mimic accents quite well.
I've never accidentally worn the same outfit as somebody else.
I often get ahead of myself.
I answer the telephone before it rings. sometimes anyway.
I can gain or lose weight very quickly.
I always, as in always, wake up before my alarm. but i don't get out of bed. haha
I spend a lot of time reminiscing. Don't we all?
I undress people with my eyes.
People don't usually ignore my comments.
I finish my meals quickly.
I am very much comfortable with silence.
Once in a while, people tell me I look like someone else.
I set my clocks ahead. Now my watch is always an hour ahead even if I set it on time. karma.
I was the best hider in 'taguan'.
I often wonder where the day went.
I sometimes enjoy being in the spotlight.
I plan ahead. But I have some reserved spontaneity hormones.
I have a knack for pulling out exactly what I want from a messy drawer.
I'd talk to my pet if I have one. It will talk back, for sure!

So, what's my superpower??

Stop the clock! Your inner superpower is TIMETRAVEL! Your answers show a keen sense of insight for all the mysteries of time. Whether you enjoy reminiscing about thepast or find yourself lost in thoughts of the future, your energies definitely point away from the present. Maybe you're mere seconds ahead or behind the rest of us, but you could also be days or even years out of sync. Your unique position in time and space gives you a wider perspective on daily events and makes you an especially wise person. You're probably a great planner. And since time is yours to play with, it's almost a given that you manage it well. If you haven't yet taken a trip through the fourth dimension, you're in for the ride of your life. Don't delay! Visit the future. Fix the past. And when you come across a very special moment, make it last as long as you like.

pagod na ako.

tip lang. as much as possible sana ang other half ninyo ay hindi niyo kapareha ng kurso.

it is a happy weekend. im not using happy for lack of words to use. i am happy in the fullest meaning of the word. maybe this is what i get after the depression mode last friday night.

come to think of it, i've matured over the weekend. i'm living a life of an eighteen-year-old the way an 18-yr-old ought to live, more honestly put the way I think an 18-yr-old ought to live. haha

i study in UP and doing pretty well, I guess. i have very good friends. i am not spiritually handicapped. i have a heart of a nationalist. i a have a job. i am in love. as my anthro prof would put it - im on my awy to holism.

smile.

i passed my econ exams. im doing very well in my econ subjects. i am about to complete my errants, remnants of last semester's academic negigence.

i have a home to look forward to. a soft bed to crawl into after a tiring day. i can talk with my friends in this room about anything and everything in the world.

i look forward to going back to church, and pray. i am consciously trying to lessen the frequency and intensity of my swearing and cursing. why? i don't really know. but i like the idea anyway.

i have high hopes for this country. i believe in its people. though i have been somewhat absent in the league, in my heart i still believe in its ideals and principles. and being in a multi-perspective econ organization gives me the drive to look for ways in achieving my full potential as a Filipino Economics student.

i was recently hired as part of Balay Linangan's pool of tutors. tomorrow night i'd be off to vista real, wherever that is, to teach geometry and biology to Jamekka, a high school sophomore I am yet to meet. i know this job would cost me a lot. but a hundred pesos per hour will justify it.

i have ^&^*&(* in my life. i am in this point where i do not actually deny that i am in love with a member of the male species. and it is emotionally overwhelming to know that i am loved.


i have dreams. big dreams. and i am actually living them. (i'm saving this for my next entry. i gotta go by now.)


and for everything, i am truly happy.

im gonna die
mamatay na ako
kamatyunon na ko.
depression
hay naku
i hate myself for hating my room
i hate myself for being hateful
i hate losing my phone
i hate feeling troubled
i hate talking to myself
i hate the rain
i hate hating
im tired
tired of thinking
tired of being alone literally
tired of staring at the ceiling
tired of wishing i have my phone
tired of longing
tired of being hungry
im so hungry
hunger for food
hunger for God
hunger for somebody, anyone to talk to
hunger for happiness
i am happy
happy to realize all this
happy to lose my hate after realizing
happy to accept the fact that i don't have my phone
happy to love
and to believe that i am loved.